Rage for Timmy III - The Bee's Knees

I'm sure that tourists comes through here at all times of the year but this Halloween display is by the residents for the residents. It must be cool to live in a community like that where you put forth so much effort to making it a nice place to live. In the big city it's not like that at all. I'm a city boy and I don't know if I could live like this forever, but it sure is nice to experience it for a weekend.

I really enjoyed this weekend and the fall colors were incredible. This was a side of Afterglow that I have never seen before and I really liked it. Summer just isn't enough anymore especially when the other seasons all have something unique to offer. And of course the more times I can hang out with Timmy the better off I will be.

The small town of Phelps has just over 1,000 residents, which makes a display like this pretty impressive. Ninjas scaling the walls? Army men patrolling the corner? This town loves it some Halloween. And they're not scared to show it to everyone.

I wish that Timmy was still here with us. I wish I could hear him laugh again or hear him play music. But that's not going to happen. I can't live my life thinking about what I don't have; I need to live thinking about what I do have. The most important thing is Jenny. As long as we stick together then we'll be alright. And I still do have all the memories of my life with Timmy. Even though I'm going to try and stay positive there is no good way to look at it. I miss Timmy. I don't want to rage for him. I want to rage with him.

There is beauty everywhere. Sometimes you have to look for it and sometimes it presents itself to you. Since it was raining earlier and sunny now, a rainbow appeared in the sky above our heads. If you look at it from the ground it kind of looks like a frown. But if you look at it from the Heavens the it looks like a smile. So in a way it was like there was an Angel smiling down on us that day. And I knew exactly which one of God's Angels that was watching over us today. It's the same one that watches over me everyday - Timmy.

Leaving Afterglow is the hardest. This one was especially tough because it would be the 3rd time I was leaving here this year. Home is supposed to be where the heart is but my heart is at Afterglow. But Afterglow isn't my home. At least not yet.

It's hard to say that I enjoy these Rage for Timmy weekends. While I do love going to Afterglow, swimming, having a fire, raging on KK or any of the things that I can only do here, I am constantly reminded about why I am coming here. When I'm at home I'm so busy with life that I don't think about life without Timmy. It's always on my mind but I surround myself with distractions to avoid the sadness. Afterglow is free of distractions and a visit to Memory Point hits me where it hurts the most - in my heart. But life goes on and I need these weekends to help me heal. You can't block the pain or hide from emotion. If you want to live a healthy life you have to deal with your problems head on. It's not easy to continue to face this reality, but Afterglow is a safe place that helps me to heal. I need this.